How are you my dear friend? How long has it been since I last posted here? I guess time is fleeting I never realized it’s been way to long. A lot of things had happened to me, friends come and go but still I feel trapped and the same. Funny, I sometimes feel oblivious that another year has passed. I don’t know how and where to start telling you of the things that had happened to me because somehow I feel it’s still the same.
I guess I’ll start by telling you the untold stories…. It’s raining here right now and the sounds of the dripping rain keep resounding continuously inside my head. Memories started flooding in…. this post will be long but I wanted to get back with those lost time. And I’ll be sharing with you all those untold stories of the past for you to better understand me … Ohhhh before I forgot I got myself a new puppy and she keeps me company tonight =) she is very adorable and I love her so much…..
Excerpt 1 – The Childhood Dreams
I remember when I was a little girl I used to dream of becoming a princess and meet my own prince charming. But I am no way a princess. I guess I was always that skinny, shy girl who always live in her own make believe world. I always feel insecure over those I find beautiful and rich. I did not come from a rich family and to have those pretty clothes and toys always ends up just a dream. I often pity myself and my family. I remember telling my self that when I grow up I will give my parents everything they want and they need.. This truly saddens me ‘coz it never happened because of just one stupid choice!
Excerpt 2 – the High school
My highschool life is pretty normal I guess despite the fact that I am the timid type; I did not end up being classified as the nerd. I belong to the popular group those they call the cheerleaders and the jocks…. They say everything begins in Highschool …. Love and reality of life but this doesn't appeal to me at all. I never had a boyfriend despite the urges of my peers but I couldn't find a place in my heart to feel for one. I keep living in fantasy, drooling over celebrities although there is this one guy I set my heart on – but he just remains a vivid dream for me. A dream I would never attain. But I did love him for 3 years.. yes 3 years of unrequited love. Because to him I am invisible and I have this fear I would never pass his standard. So the dream and fantasy about him went on for 3 long years.. 3 years of unrequited love.
Come senior year and I fall in-love with this guy from school. At first it all started as forcing my feeling to like him just to get over my unrequited love and then eventually the feelings went deep. Until, I learn to truly love him. I wanted to keep that feelings hidden. But Higschool secrets will never remain a secret once you told your friends. To make this short he courted me but i turn him down... he got hurt... he wen't away... I realized i was wrong... I was too late he fell in-love with another girl... I graduated in highschool full of regrets and with an empty lonely heart... My first ever heart ache.... stupid i am right?
to be continued..... Untold Story Part 2 the tertiary-working days